Mood: anesthetized Soledad Good day, dear community! I despair, I really need some help or just wha

Mood: anesthetized Soledad Good day, dear community! I despair, I really need some help or just what a good word. Long since I read you, I see a lot of posts with thanks and observe how, with your help people find the strength and solutions. I was left alone. My father committed suicide when I was 14 years old. Two years ago, I buried oktoberfest 2013 my mother. Now I'm 22 and is infinitely lonely. On the third year because of my mother's death I quit college. oktoberfest 2013 I had to go to work to survive. My favorite person left me beat for what broke my wrist. I had a close friend, but she went mad at the institute. Just she became hysterical, because she saw me hanging with rugged face, or I lost her baby in her imagination, though I've never been pregnant. oktoberfest 2013 I just could not stand it. More friends I have not happened. Since I live alone, my life has become hopeless. My work gives me a revulsion in the team quietly despise me because I tried very hard to please everyone all the tasks performed, borrowed money. I bite the bullet and live business hours and go back to an empty rented apartment where stayus fight to end the day with silence. I was scared to talk to people about my birthday, I remembered only because of smske bank. My misanthropy progresses. Lately, I often sit out in the attic 16 etazhki, persuade yourself to jump, but I'm scared. What if I survive? I will remain helpless useless invalidkoy. I write it, and shake hands. What if I find myself an outsider here? That's it. Thanks in advance to all.
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